Hiking Day 2015

Hiking Day 2015

I asked Chris if he would like to go hiking with me at Robbers’ Cave today. I woke him up at about 9:15 or so this morning and I could already tell that he was not in a good mood. I thought about not doing it, but I knew that Chris would be adamant that we go, since it was something that was important to me. In my mind, I had this picture of us taking a stroll chit-chatting, just really having fun like we always do when we get to spend time together.

When we got out of the van, Chris took his phone and his ear phones, and that is when I knew things were not going to be exactly how I was picturing in my mind. We went the opposite direction that I ever do since, I usually never finish a hike due to lack of direction or some other excuse.

The hike started off okay, other than the silence. Chris and I did not do much talking at all, and at first I was disappointed, but then I tried to put myself in his place. Maybe, the silence was what he needed. At about 45 minutes in, I was getting tired and we decided to sit down at a spot that was very peaceful. Come to find out, Chris was not for the sit down and just chill out in the silence. Our lives seem to be totally opposite right now and I don’t like that.

This hike, ended up taking us right at about 2 hours due to our incessant need to see the finish line. We both were sure that the finish line could not be that much further. Is that not how we, Chris and I, view our own lives, every time life gets tough, so what do we do? We, in some ways give it up and find another color to follow, then another, then it was no longer a color but Trail 2B. During this time, I was doing what I could to hold back the tears because I was hurting so bad, and just wanted to stop and not go any further. I wanted to turn around and go back the way I came. 

Each step of this hike was shouting at me, that it was representative of our life at this moment. We are on this trail of life, following after God just knowing that the finish line is just ahead, but it’s not, it never is. So, what do we do? We go a bit further and the finish line is not there, then we find ourselves at a crossroad. We hem and haw. We question if what we are doing or where we are going is right. Do we make decisions together? Not really, each one defers to the other and then offers the support to work on some sort of follow through. I hurt so bad, my body ached so much, but still kept going. 

(2017) This hike took us on a 2-hour journey. One that showed me how I view my walk with God. I do not want to make the long trek. I want the immediate satisfaction of knowing that I am right where God wants me to be, now, not two hours from now, but now. I cannot say that this “journey” was therapeutic, but I did see how it really represented how I feel our life looked at the time. I still feel this way. Just when I think I have grown, I see something like this and realize I am still in my own 40-year wilderness. Going around and around in circles, never getting where I feel God wants me to be. I have to make the changes. I have to be the one to create success in my life. God never changes. He never moves from where He is, He does not have to. He is GOD! It’s about me making changes and, I have begun making changes. One of the changes I have made is scripture writing. I wake up in the morning. I make my daily “Zeal for Life”. I get my journal and my Bible app. I get on Pinterest and look up my September Scripture Writing and I write. I don’t just write. I really focus on what the scripture is telling me. I let it seep into my heart. I let it take root into my life and I live it daily. I am beginning to see myself through the eyes of my Creator, my Heavenly Father. The one who knew that my sin would keep me from Him, so He sent His Son to redeem me, not just me, but all of us on the earth. Make one change beginning today that will change the trajectory of your relationship with God. Maybe that is making time for prayer each day, no matter what. Maybe that is getting back to church every week. Maybe it is bringing your family together for Bible study and prayer. Do one thing! Let’s make changes together.